Last Month Didn't Count...

    Time and time again, I wake up and say that "today is going to be different." I tell myself to put my mistakes and grudges behind me, but day after day, I fail to do so. Within the last month, I have mentally gone through so much that I have reached a yet another point of acceptance. I go through moments of euphoria and inspiration, which urge me to get up and move through my life. Recently, I have had trouble reaching those moments. My busy schedule and personal hardships have taken a toll on the way I treat myself and others. For instance, I have let myself forget about the things that help me meditate. Blogging is one of my favorite things to do, it relaxes me, and gets me excited about whatever I happen to be writing about. It is a way for me to vent, and this month hasn't given me more than a day to brainstorm and be creative. My absence from Urbanéss is unacceptable in my mind, it has been one thing so far that has held me grounded and sure of myself and without it, I feel incomplete. Over the past few days, I have just been running circles in my head, contemplating all of this and wondering how to end this feeling. However, I realize that my problem is that I overthink things. One of the most useful philosophies that I apply to this situation is to just "let it be" and that "it is what it is." I can't change my schedule, I can't change the way people act around me. The only thing I can change is myself, and I can embrace this emotional difficulty as a challenge to get through. I know for a fact that I am not the only person who has gone through something like this. I remind myself when I'm feeling down, to not let this become an excuse to not try my hardest. No matter what it is, the intention to do the right thing gives me the drive I need to make it through the day. Someone once told me that you have to hold yourself accountable, but never be so hard on yourself that you aren't at peace in your mind. It hasn't been all bad though, this month has also been full of interesting challenges and fun experiences. I am putting rough days behind me because today is a new day.
    I am normally not secure talking to people about things like this, but sometimes I think it's important  to step outside of your comfort zone. Especially when it means releasing burdening thoughts. I hope that  everyone who has ever felt like this has been able to get through it. If so, let me know down in the comments below!!  Looking forward to a  fun filled long weekend, and expect some happy posts!! (Don't be suprised if you find some bunnies cupcake recipes  included)

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